So..I'm not looking for anything special..
Just the fact that I've made it this long is a gift unto it's own.
Chronic depression and all that goes along with it..the self doubt, the isolationism ..the suicidal thoughts..
It can't be taken to seriously. How to ignore suicidal thoughts? You shelve them in the farther reaches of your
thoughts. Look to what is right in the world. In my case - things are running thin.
So - on Wednesday I'm seeing my Doc Lisa who has stuck by me for the last ~12 years to set me up with
counseling. I've been though counseling before, and it's a band-aid for what lies deeper within. You may be able
to see things from a different perspective.
Go into this with an open mind. I'm trying..but the answer has to come from within. A truth that makes sense of your
psyche. No can tell you what is.
It's all up to you.
Suicide has never been an option, but I'm closer to than than I'd care to be.
So please pray for me..There is a realm unseen with us where Heavenly Creatures dwell..and I can use their help.