I cannot continue here and hope to function as usual.
I'm suffering from a mental state I've not experienced in years (decades).
There's nothing for me to share. No material. No output.
I've always gauged my depression by the color of the sky..witnessing the beautiful around me..I
If I could "be happy"
I can't. I have nothing, but will continue to survive.
This is a white knuckle event, and I am so tired..