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So..I'm not looking for anything special..
Just the fact that I've made it this long is a gift unto it's own.
Chronic depression and all that goes along with it..the self doubt, the isolationism ..the suicidal thoughts..
It can't be taken to seriously. How to ignore suicidal thoughts? You shelve them in the farther reaches of your
thoughts. Look to what is right in the world. In my case - things are running thin.
So - on Wednesday I'm seeing my Doc Lisa who has stuck by me for the last ~12 years to set me up with
counseling. I've been though counseling before, and it's a band-aid for what lies deeper within. You may be able
to see things from a different perspective.
Go into this with an open mind. I'm trying..but the answer has to come from within. A truth that makes sense of your
psyche. No can tell you what is.
It's all up to you.
Suicide has never been an option, but I'm closer to than than I'd care to be.
So please pray for me..There is a realm unseen with us where Heavenly Creatures dwell..and I can use their help.
Just the fact that I've made it this long is a gift unto it's own.
Chronic depression and all that goes along with it..the self doubt, the isolationism ..the suicidal thoughts..
It can't be taken to seriously. How to ignore suicidal thoughts? You shelve them in the farther reaches of your
thoughts. Look to what is right in the world. In my case - things are running thin.
So - on Wednesday I'm seeing my Doc Lisa who has stuck by me for the last ~12 years to set me up with
counseling. I've been though counseling before, and it's a band-aid for what lies deeper within. You may be able
to see things from a different perspective.
Go into this with an open mind. I'm trying..but the answer has to come from within. A truth that makes sense of your
psyche. No can tell you what is.
It's all up to you.
Suicide has never been an option, but I'm closer to than than I'd care to be.
So please pray for me..There is a realm unseen with us where Heavenly Creatures dwell..and I can use their help.
A Reunion ...
I've been blessed with a reunion of sorts!
Not for me..but the celebration of a 50th Wedding Anniversary.
Close friends all-my surrogate family.
Bob and Kit.
Life is short..
Spend your time wisely..
And at the age of 63 in October I feel
the grim reaper knocking..
Here I am..can you see me?
Such a longtime since I've written a Journal.
So see me. I'm still the same old guy you've come to know..
I've just not been around in a while.
Life changes, it has a baring on your soul.
Not always for the ill, but an effect on it none the less.
There have been friends I've come to know..some lost others found.
I've counted a few I've made here over the last few years.
and for that I'm grateful.
My camera's gone..I will have it back soon and maybe I can contribute something
more to this world of ours.
Thank You all so much..
Yours..
Todd.
So..maybe you thought I had passed on?
No.. I've just been waiting for the cliffhanger at the end of the season of "The Walking Dead"!
Glenn Frey of the Eagles.. RIP.
The 'Eagles' started as the backing band for Linda Ronstadt back in the 70's. As the group evolved into their
own - members came and went. They ended up with Glenn, Don Henley, Timothy B. Schmidt and Joe Walsh.
How many songs an you count..I grew up with the band and cruising our neighborhood in our 1st cars the Eagles
would be background music either on tape or radio.
"Heartache Tonight", "Witchy Woman", "Hotel California", Tequila Sunrise", "Already Gone", "Peaceful Easy Feeling",
"Heat is On"...these were the theme songs of our youth.
Along with the loss of David Bowey.. I don't know about you - I'm feeling a bit dated.
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Hello Todd
I'm sorry I missed your birthday and I hope you are better and have a good mood now.
Take care and I send you a hug.
I'm sorry I missed your birthday and I hope you are better and have a good mood now.
Take care and I send you a hug.